My Dad killed Himself because of my Nude Pics- Playboy model

A Playboy model has spoken for the first time about her secret heartache, after discovering her father had killed himself after seeing she had become a nude model.

Loredana Chivu had always had a close relationship with her father, but said that changed when — as an 18-year-old — she stripped off for a set nude photos in the Romanian edition of Playboy magazine.

"He stopped speaking to me, he was pretty upset. I thought he would get over it and I never expected he would do something like kill himself,” she said. “When he found out what I had done, he cut himself off from the world and tried to isolate me as well from the rest of the family."

She has now revealed that when she went to reconcile with him a few months later, after deciding that the dispute had gone on long enough, she was horrified to find he had killed himself.

"I found him hanging from a beam in the attic. I never recovered from the shock of finding him,” she said. “He had not left a suicide note and everybody said that up to the end he seemed cheerful, and it was a complete mystery as to why he would do something like this."

 

Chivu, now 25 and living in the Romanian capital Bucharest, said that ever since that moment six years ago she had been haunted by the fear that his motivation for killing himself was the fight that they had.

"We had always been close and talked every day, and suddenly that stopped after the photographs,” she said.

"Even after all this time I find it hard to come up with words to talk about it, it is still too painful. I would not wish this on anyone. One of the worst things is not knowing, he didn't seem to have any pressing problems at the time apart from our argument and I never would have thought he was a weak man who would take his own life. On the contrary, he was full of life, he enjoyed having fun."

She added that the loss and not understanding why he did what he did was a constant pain in her life, and after losing the chance to speak to him about their disagreement, she fears that she will never know.