Gwen Stefani compares divorce to ‘dying,’ says she forced herself to channel pain into music

All the riches in the world didn’t mean much to Gwen Stefani when she landed in Splitsville.

The pop star continues to open about her divorce from rocker Gavin Rossdale as she plugs her new album and revealed she felt she was “dying” after the collapse of her marriage.

“I wasn’t thinking. I was feeling and I was dying. And then I was like, ‘You can’t go down like this! You have to turn this into music. You have to try, at least,'” the “Used to Love You” singer told GQ magazine in an interview published on Wednesday.

“I was so embarrassed by just everything. I just didn't want to be that person that just went down after all of that,” she continued.

At the time, music was the last thing on her mind, she recalled.

"I didn't want to make a record: I just wanted to not die. That's it. The fact that now I have a record and people are hearing it, it just blows my mind,” she explained.

But, the crooner — who is no stranger to breakups, having documented her pain in the past with No Doubt — forced herself to lyricize her heartbreak, especially as she felt needed an outlet to tell her side of the story.

 

Fittingly, her latest album is titled "This is What the Truth Feels Like."

"Everything happens so fast. It's all happening in real time in the sense that, ‘Used to Love You' came out only a couple weeks after I wrote it," she explained to the magazine.

“The only reason I did that was just being honest. There's been a lot of dishonesty around me, and I just don't understand that because it's just not how I live,” the mom-of-three added.

When not channeling her sorrow, the songstress was healing with her blossoming relationship with country star Blake Shelton, who she’s been linked to since November after ending things with Rossdale in August.